Getting Antsy... ^_^

I was able to move up the date of our first sonogram. This way Brandon can at least be a part of something and not feel so left out. Plus he will have a picture to carry with him :)

My dad should be driving down here sometime next week. He will be helping us move our stuff into storage, but most importantly, spending quality time with Brandon before he leaves. (And I'm sure getting in some golf time while in sunny Florida!) I am doing my best, trying to get the house packed and cleaned, but I am so nauseous lately I can't get much done. I hate feeling so helpless and useless. Poor Brandon, I haven't made dinner for him in weeks. Every little smell sets me off, or even thinking about a smell. Some days are better than others. I was able to get a prescription for Zofran, but I try not to take it unless I absolutely need it. This morning, though, I must have waited too long to take it because I vomited the half cup of Gatorade I drank as soon as I woke up. I think I also might have pulled a muscle in my upper back in the process :(

I have been having a dream almost every night about the baby. The first couple of dreams I had the baby was born premature, so I concentrated on trying to nurse it so it would finish developing.
The next dream, I gave birth to a little piglet. The humane society came and took it away before I could get it to nurse... I eventually ran into my stepmom and she handed me my piglet baby. Unfortunately, the bond between the baby and me was broken and it wouldn't nurse. I was forced to give it back to the humane society heart broken.
The last dream I had, my family was sitting around a table eating Thanksgiving dinner. I walked around the table to the seat next to my father and proceeded to sit down. Some thing on his lap caught my eye. A little baby girl. She was laughing and reaching her little pudgy fingers towards me. I just looked down at her in awe. I now know what mothers mean when they say they are bonded with their babies even before they are born. This little flower bud has my heart already.
I don't care how sick I get or miserable I am... I just pray you come out healthy. Mommy loves you very much! I can't wait to meet you...

This song is for you...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LR_0MHAuEh8